While exercise and milk will strengthen my bones, there is no way to travel through time to change the skeletons of my past.
Last summer, I noticed a friend of mine has a tattoo that says, "No Regrets". At the time, I felt like I had regrets. I had been married to someone for a short amount of time, and was going through the process of moving on from that. I had been drinking a lot and wasn't satisfied with the progress of my photography company, Blush. I felt like I had wasted so much time and energy on a relationship with a man, rather than with myself. There was so much that I hadn't done yet...so many goals not met, and I wasn't doing much to achieve any of them. It was a hard time for me.
Looking back on that time, I now see a woman who was truly in charge of her life. I had left a verbally abusive and loveless relationship to better myself, I had true friends who loved their lives, and at the end of the day, it was a time where I was preparing for the biggest goal of all...growth. Which is a goal that I hope to never achieve fully.
My un-met goals at the time were simply evolving into new goals. I just hadn't noticed or accepted these changes, yet. The things once very important to me, had begun to take new form.
During this time of self-discovery, I had also moved out of my photography studio in SODO and into a Capitol Hill one-bedroom apartment. It was the tail-end of summer, still warm and sunny outside. I was near parks, shopping and restaurants, and had walls and doors with charming features, unlike living in an industrial studio space. The new environment gave me new energy. I was also able to take on a creative passion- interior decorating. It was truly refreshing. That move was exactly what I needed to accept change in my life.
So, I guess my skeletons aren't really skeletons at all. They are simply the things that have lead me to where I am now. And the things occurring now will soon become the things that lead me to where I wish to be. I truly believe that future Kristen can look back on this time with no regrets.
*Above Photo: Me at the Wild Horses monument, May 2009.